Journeys and shadows

 

It’s been quite a hectic week! At home we decided to redecorate a bedroom (and have more or less done it now), my latest QHHT session was a long one and took me forever to type up, and my day job has been non stop as my colleague is on holiday so I’m on my own this week with lots and lots of clients! I go to bed at night and it’s like I’m in a coma. I dreamt I was stood over someone snoring and afterwards when I woke up I wondered if it was my husband Graeme or could it even have been ME that was snoring and it then filtered into the dream! 😆

Whilst wallpapering I reflected on the journey I have taken doing QHHT. I am very impatient and can be guilty of ignoring the journey because I feel the need to get to the destination yesterday! QHHT has been completely different.. I have enjoyed the slow pace of it. It’s a subject you can’t hurry and a journey within itself so it has been a pleasure to take that path. Looking back I’m always in a hurry to finish one project or another, however the journey I have always found (on reflection) is the best part. An example of this is doing basic training in the Royal Navy….. I. Just. Wanted. It. To. End! … but it was my very favourite part of it when I think back, and no good day in ”The Andrew” was ever as good as the hardest day of basic training. The running ultra races I have done… I always wished I was at the finish line, but being presented with a medal or a certificate at the end was never as good as that feeling of running your 95th mile when at 73 miles you thought you would never be capable of even walking to 74!

So I’m enjoying my new found patience and I’m so looking forward to the journey I’m yet to travel. During this time of training in QHHT I also took the course for Beyond Quantum Healing (BQH) founded by Candace Craw Goldman. She worked with Dolores Cannon for a number of years and founded a modality that could be done online. I read recently Dolores was very supportive of her adaptations which was a lovely thing to discover.  I haven’t done anything with this yet however it has been interesting to learn an alternative style. 

I haven’t been able to decide where this is all going, as I have already mentioned in a previous blog, but after speaking to my manager about possibly changing my hours next year he contacted me yesterday to say they are happy to accommodate my wishes to go part time. He was grateful I had given him 8 months notice and said he had really appreciated my honesty.

When it comes to being open and honest, I have always wished I could be one of those people who doesn't share all of their plans with the world as soon as I think them! I quite often just say what I’m thinking and feeling to anyone and everyone, then think damn, why can’t I be a bit more mysterious and aloof and then sit with things on my own for a while! It’s not in my nature I suppose and I am known for wearing my heart on my sleeve to those who know me well. I have recently realised this isn’t such a bad thing! Why should anyone be bothered by my plans? The saying “What other people think of you is none of your business” is very true. If someone has an opinion, that’s ok! 

It got me thinking of my own opinions… last year I met somebody who literally drove me insane! They were impatient, defensive, an over thinker, an over sharer, an over analyser and a born worrier. This person drove me to distraction so much so I hated being around them. Then one day I realised that every trait I despised in that person was a reflection of myself. It was all the parts of me that I pushed into the shadows and tried to manipulate and bribe to stay in the corner out of the way, trying to hide them from anyone who may see. Granted, this person was an exaggerated persona of me, yet it was ME all the same. It took some time to admit that what I didn’t like about this person were parts of me that I try to suppress, but I have admitted it now and see this person in a whole new light. I even help this person when I see them and tell them about how I handled a situation they find themselves in, and I can genuinely understand their frustrations. It’s been an amazing thing to acknowledge and reflect on. So if you find yourselves unable to stand being in the presence of someone, truly ask yourself what is it about that person that you really can’t stand about yourself! It’s not easy and I am only just learning to look truthfully, because your first thought is, “I am nothing like them!” You may find a different outcome to me but I have learnt that what triggers you is within you and the sooner you accept that the sooner you can move on and let things go. Like I said though… I’m not accepting of it ALL yet, but I’m trying to be! And of course, nobody has to agree with me either. Everyone is on their own journey and as long as you are happy in your own skin, it’s nobody else's business. 

So my next job is my website because I need to update it. I have been doing QHHT sessions on weekends alongside a full time job so I am now going down to just one session per week while I’m doing the full time ‘day’ job and will take things as it comes with no expectations other than enjoying the journey. 

I really should mention at this point some lovely people I have met along the way since I started this in February. You may look at my website and not resonate with me and that’s perfectly fine. There are other practitioners in our area and you’re bound to feel a connection to one of us. Starting furthest south near Darlington you have James Leathley, then just south of me you have Joanne Grylls who is in Hartlepool. Then there’s me ☺️ and then further up north in Sunderland is Sherry Fothergill. Slightly to the west of us in Howden le Wear is Steven Salisbury, so that’s all of the QHHT team in the area and we are all around about the same level in our training with this modality. If you are further afield in the UK you can look up the QHHT register for your area and see who is close to you and who you resonate with. It’s important to not worry about the level a practitioner is, it’s more the feeling you get as you look at each person individually. Like I said, it’s all about feeling that you resonate with someone and we are all happy to know you found the right person, even if that isn’t us personally! ☺️ Happy searching and I know we are all really looking forward to meeting you and helping you find your own answers to the questions you feel compelled to ask! ❤️

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